I was born into the kind of family that always show their love through an ‘action.’ Whether it’s small or huge, it anyhow sounds like, “here’s take all my love for you.” And as I grew up, it also grew within me. Every kind of kindness action towards me was always shaped like love, from the moment a father asks what flavor of ice cream he’s daughter prefers, or when her friends make her a birthday party, until a security guard in high school helped her to cross the road or a random stranger straight forward to help picking up her fallen stuff. That was the kind of love she knew, at least until then.
From time to time, I discovered a new kind of love. That feeling when you have a flower garden along with butterflies flying around happily in your tummy, and you couldn’t even blink for a second glance from seeing such a charm in someone’s face. You feel so loved in a romantic way, in a way our family and friends didn’t do. I don’t think I’m capable enough to express it well enough in words, but to have a soulmate, a lover, your other half.f From time to time, that kind of love also grew and showered me.
But still, every form of love is the greatest. From everywhere, in any kind, no matter how it could be shown. My surroundings, friends, and families gave me the abundant love I needed the most. It was a warm home—a home held with kindness. Besides, the romantic kind of love men gave me made me feel wanted and desired; it held my hand for a longer time. It was also a home — a home held with sweet romance.
I was blessed to be surrounded by only a kindhearted person in this life. Each one of them is precious. They’re the people I want to walk with, side by side in life. I believe every kindness and love I got was the price of my good. As possible as I could, I always want to do good and spread loves to my surroundings. And It returned to my kindhearted surroundings as well; friends, families, lovers, and things that go nice in life. I know for sure It goes the same for everyone who has loved me and still. Your life, too, I guarantee the price of love and kindness you have given to me will be returned to everything, anything you need the most.
Despite all those, I couldn’t be more grateful to everyone who has loved me and is willing to continue without a force, without a doubt, in a way only they could show. From my surroundings or lovers, romantically or not, it all matters. Even if your love has stopped already and couldn’t continue, it does still matters. It meant more than a lot; it was everything I needed for the sake of my soul to remain alive. I believe everything we do in life begins with love first. And all the love they’ve granted me was the significant thing for me to begin life with; it lingers, stronger as I grow. I take and put it piece by piece, blessedly to use it when I’m not whole. It fills into a hole that I don’t know how to explain existed in my life that couldn’t be erased. Since then, I, too, learned that giving love was easy, yet so hard, to the point that some people couldn’t store even a bit of love and kindness in theirs. And yet all of my people choose kindness once again.
And to everyone who has loved me and still. There’s will always a special soft place in my heart for every piece of love you’ve given me. You’re precious, your love precious. I gathered all the love you’ve given me to straighten my soul. Thank you for always being kind and for choosing kindness over and over. You show me how the world should perceive to be. The way I feel relieved that in this cruel world we are living in, there are still people person who choose kindness and loving as a way to live their life. Thank you, It’s very generous of you.
I wish you nothing but surrounded by kindness and loves only. A love from the depth of the sea, everywhere underneath the sky, in any side of the world.
P.S. To everyone who has loved me and still. Thank you for choosing kindness once again. Thank you for letting your heart breathe its sound out. The love I have isn’t sufficient enough as a return. But on behalf of each name who has loved me and still, I granted upon you a promise within my blood. There will remain, endlessly, remnants of kindness and love in the universe that solely exist for you; they will fill your life numerous times, in every form, in every kind, to the fullest.
𝘚𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘺,
𝘍𝘦𝘣𝘳𝘶𝘢𝘳𝘺, 25, 2023
To the one name I can’t mention. Thank you for inspiring me to write this. And thank you for making me realize that I am loved.
